Monday, February 25, 2008
Breaks My Heart
I was at the grocery store on Sunday evening and I heard a little girl crying to her mom, "Mama, mama" I looked over and saw the parents just looking in disbelief at the child. I don't know what was happening, but the little girl sounded so distressed, it just broke my heart. I had to hurry to get away because it was really hurting me to hear that sound. I don't know if she was in trouble, or if she is neglected, or what. Personally I thought it was past her bedtime, but I don't know the whole situation. My biggest fear is that SD will have this empty feeling longing for me and that is something I never want her to feel. I don't know why this is such a big fear, I never felt that as a child, or at least not that I can remember. For some reason, I think about if something were to happen to me and the feeling she might feel, of being alone and scared. I always go get her in the middle of the night when I can tell she has had a nightmare or something, I don't want her to feel scared and alone. Lately she has started whining for me a lot more and it is so hard because sometimes, I have to let her cry it out, when I know it is just because she hasn't had enough sleep and needs to cry herself back to sleep, but nevertheless, it still totally tugs on my heart strings. I know there are so many kids out there whose parents don't care and they feel this all of the time, and it totally breaks my heart (then I read this blog and about died). Thankfully we all have a Father who is always there for us no matter what our age or situation. But, I do believe that parents are supposed to be an earthly example of that Father so that our kids can understand their heavenly Father a little better.